Every day I wonder if I am taking too much medication or not enough
The convex white discs in this bottle have so cleanly amputated the part of me that hates myself the part that aches just by being empty the part that wants to die. Despite that nothing new has grown into the vacant lot. I know these things take time but how long can people be vacant before they are plowed over bulldozed into featureless subdivisions or highrises.
The part of me that hated myself ached just by being empty wanted to die. is gone. But the vaguer ambiguous parts that panic at fleeting uncertainty, the ones that question such things as mundane as grammar or s
I didn't know I had depression until I turned around one day and found someone else in the same boat. It had never occurred to me that you could have depression and not know it and after sitting down with myself and having a good long think I came to the awful realization that it's been ten years. Ten. Years.
Ten years of being incapable of feeling the entire breadth of human emotion; only degrees of anger I couldn't control or understand, knowing that I was behaving completely irrationally and being unable to stop, driving away family and the precious few friends that had managed to find me and could no longer hang on to the maelstrom I had
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He raced along the earthen corridor and was forced to skid to a stop as he encountered an obstruction. There were three doors. Identical. Wood. Flimsy. But they may as well have been made of dentarium. His captain was behind one of them and there was no time to check them all. He would get only one chance.
By his calculations he had 17.62 seconds exactly to make his decision and reach the captain before the game was forfeit and their lives lost.
His kind did not hesitate, but he found himself doing so. Which way? Which door? Dead end? Trap? The captain? 15 One two three. Right middle left. Middle left right middle right. right. Right.
The pain was incredible. He'd been bladed before, deep cuts across his limbs and face, made with dull metal and bits of osvin, but never like this. A guttery knife maybe, thin and sharp, as long as his hand, wedged low in his ribcage. He hadn't had much chance to see it. It burned like he hadn't imagined it would and somewhere in the foggy recesses of his mind he recalled having once been told that you shouldnt remove a blade, right as he slid it out and let it tang to the ground. He crumpled a moment after, coming to rest in a small pile of rags. He tried to remember, remember who had nicked him, why, and how to breathe. It hadn't been Tani;
It was so dark down here. Mori and his friends had found caves before; gleefully exploring the little crags in the earth that swallowed up the light. Wet and dark, full of strange insects and flying things. None had ever been as large or still as this. Now they clung to his robe like children as the walls of rock stretched high above, the flame of the single torch and candle barely illuminating the ceilings. Passages stretched on into the darkness, threatening to consume them all.
This expedition was the longest and most desperate. It had been many days since they arrived, or at least, they thought it had been. It was impossible to tell in t